Reflections of Life

First of all, just want to apologize for the long delay between blogs. The McDaniel household has been as busy as usual in preparing for back to school. Also, a couple of tragedies...My dear friend Scarlet lost her Mother to a stroke and a fellow coworker passed this week from stage 4 cancer. God bless both families....

Growing up, our family never really talked about death... My family was in a car accident(hit by a drunk driver)when I was 4 and my 5 year old brother died...But we never talked about it. I remember the accident, the ambulance ride, the funeral, like it was yesterday...I don't have a fear of death but let's just say...I'm not looking forward to it...

I am a person that enjoys life for the most part. My husband and kids drive me a lil crazy sometimes but like everyone else, I roll with the punches. When I was diagnosed all the normal daily stress seem to fade away...All I could think is , I am not ready to give this up yet! One of my sons once told me that I couldn't die because I was the glue that held our family together. I'll never forget the night before my surgery, couldn't sleep because I was worried about my husband and kids if I didn't make it. Who would balance the checkbook? Who would vacuum under the couch cushions? Who would make sure my boys didn't try to wear the same clothes everyday? Who would make the beds? Water the plants? I know, seems silly now but just the same I was worried. I remember writing the letter everyone writes to their family before a surgery...Short but sweet-How much I loved them and always will and advised my husband he could not marry a Hooters waitress as his next wife.lol

I never worry now about death, just enjoy life more...I have talked to my kids about death but never wanted to scare them about it or make them dwell on it...Your life can change in an instant and I have instilled that in them both, because time is something you can't get back. I have faith in my my life and not just religious faith but faith in life. Life really is what you make of it...